To all,
Since loading a SGforums page takes me a very long time in India,
this is perhaps one of the post which I will write long here in
reply to various people, in no order of preference, using one reply
in one go.
Dear Bohemian and perhaps to James,
First of all, I am not really that good as you have spoken of me. I
have been a bad boy before, otherwise, I would not have avoided the
forum, trying all means and ways to hide who I am, now that it no
longer matters.
I believed in Darwinism, that there is a survival of the species. I
believe that there is strong and weak and only the strong will
prevail, and I believe that it is a dog-eat-dog world because
someone once said, when there are people, there are always
turbulence and conflict, because humans would by nature make them
happen. But that does not mean that I am cynical to hide behind
some mask and be ugly. Because I feel that cynicism is a loser's
mentality, and cynics can never achieve anything or make a
difference in life. I used to believe in Kant in total
enlightenment, but now I prefer a mixture of Nietzsche and Kant, to
give myself more space to grow, to be expanded to more experiences
and have a balanced view to things. I believe that experience is
the name which everyone gives to their mistakes. Experience only
allows me to re-adapt and select what is useful and not useful to
me, and some painful ones change me and kills part of me.. If
someone thinks that I am still the same as ever, then he or she
would suffer the consequences later. I believed in constructive
competition, people help each other to grow, to work for a greater
course. I don't see any point in destructive competition, because
it is not economical and pragmatic at all.
I can choose to be evil and ruthless, if I want to. Don't think
that I will stick to the first law as if it is some religious
dogma. If things change, and I change as well, I may just break it
because things become dogma, when someone forgets why he or she
believed in it the first place.. But there is no need for me to do
that now, since I am still living in a idllyic world of academia. I
prefer to be kind and nice to people since I think that it is the
right thing for me to do. Maybe after 2 years from now, I think
that I will be change as well, since I have more or less know what
I am going to do next. However, I am aware that there are people
who take that for granted, and think that I can be bullied around
or I am too nice to be pushed around. If one attempts to stretch my
tolerance to the point which I finally get mad and angry (which has
not happened yet), I would not hesitate to pull punches on
anything, meaning that I would pay an eye for an eye, if not 10
times the treatment to some moron who attempt to hurt my family.
One should take kindness from me as weakness since I know that I
have acquired my fair share of adversaries thru confrontation as
well...
My passage to India was quite bizarre. I was chatting with an
American blonde who sat next to me on the plane to Calcutta. I was
telling her that I still could not believe that I am now heading to
India and know what I would be doing exactly or expecting there
since everyone painted negative pictures of the place to me. Going
to Calcutta was a new experience for me, and it is now an exciting
adventure for me to be in a world different from ours which we take
it for granted, from the clean water we drink to the clean streets
we have in Singapore, and to the wide disparity of wealth from the
rich to the poverty.
Dear NaiveGirl,
I would just do my best to prevail your tests, in view of your
attempts to stretch my limits. Like I said before, if you are like
Jennifer Anniston or Gong Li, saying that "I am worth it" and if u
are the One, I would push myself to persist or even break my laws
for you. If you are not, then I would not be bothered anymore but
still be a good friend who can support and help u whenever u need
me.. Let's wait and see...
Btw, please fall in love with me when u see me in real life
someday.... hahahhahahahahahhahaha
*confident smile* 
Dear Tet,
James~ would be a good choice if you are seeking men to lust after
you since u are open to people in breaking your committment and
those who violate my first law... *lol*
Well, Matahari,
We all make choices in life. Sometimes, it hurts one and heals the
other. Some people are lucky because they always choose, and some
people are not lucky, because they are always stuck as being
people's 2nd choice, or never a choice at all. So, make wise
choices.
Dear Revey, Qwerty, Ocean, UBA, Callan, Colette, Pacman and
Sparkle,
Hope that you all are doing fine. Wishing you well, from Calcutta.
I will be heading to Chennai (Madrus) tomorrow, and my adventures
will be to the south of the exotic India.
Do take care.
Luv Always from Calcutta,
Prodigal
"Most of the things worth doing in the world had been declared
impossible before they were done.."
